So I don't talk to many people about most really personal things, I do talk a lot... there are just many things most people never hear from me. However I feel like I need to talk about this, for my own sake.

I had a normal gynecological exam about 3 weeks ago. Everything came back fine on all of my tests and I'm a healthy little girl. However during my breast exam the student who is also working with me found something. She showed it to the main doc and they discussed and talked with me and decided that it was interesting.

I should state that I have cystic breasts to begin with. I guess all that means is that in general there are really small beads or cysts that are normal for me and can be found all over within my breasts. They change size depending on fluids and the time of the month and when you touch them they are kind of rolly polly and all moveable and stuff. When they found this particular bump though it was much larger than the others. Deciding that since I was only one week away from my period which is a time when those things can be larger, they asked me to come in 10 days after my period to double check this particular bump.

So today I went back. I didn't have to do anything but get my breasts examined again. During the exams it was decided that the bump from the last time had not changed size. This bump does seem to be movable, which is good news since a cancerous lump is NOT movable, however it hadn't changed at all. The up news was that there seemed to be another bump which mirrored my first one. That bump hadn't been there the last time, but I am told that the fact that their is a mirror is a sign of normality.

Laying on a bed with a woman on each side of you both of them rubbing around on your breasts and discussing abnormalities is an uncomfortable and also kind of numbing experience. Both women are really nice, and I like seeing them very much, however that doesn't make the whole situation feel better. What was decided was that they just don't know what it is. They are nearly positive its not cancerous. Most other things (at least that they told me) found in breasts are benign. And the fact that I'm not yet 26 makes my risk of anything really low. However this little bump worries them enough that I have to go back in another month to have it looked at again. If at that point the bump is bigger or even the same size I will be having an ultra-sound on it. If it is smaller than all the other cysts in my body and we don't need to do anything.

As of yet I have not done any research since I only just came back from the doctors and wanted to get my thoughts down right now. They continually assured me there was nothing to worry about, however it seems odd to me that we are set on finding out what it is, if its nothing.

The other thing that hit me a little bit was that when deciding when to ultra-sound my doc said she felt okay waiting another month since I was so young. If there is nothing to worry about, even if I was older why would it matter if we wait a month? Maybe I am reading too much into this. I really don't think that they are lying to me or anything, I have to state again that I really like these doctors and feel comfortable talking to them. I'm just really not sure what to think and I feel like this is a touchy and scary area to have to think about.

I really and truly welcome any comments or discussion about mine or other similar situations from other women or men. I feel like maybe if I talk this out in a positive way with others, I will feel better.